»So far this past week has been very productive. I've accomplished about 80% of my fitness goals, studied when i needed to , and even disciplined myself to staying on course (because as you must know i'm apparently simple-minded).

» I've gained about 20 more lbs. than i should be, 10 of which vic labels me as overweight, BUT I am determined to lose all the chocolate (all the tid bits i've sneaked in despite my guilty conscience), sushi and korean bbq buffets, cache creek buffet, kettle corn, burritos, greasy chinese food during lunch specials, mcdonalds, the single cheesy double burrito from taco bell, the yang chow fried rice at hiep pho, and all the other junk that i've consumed in the past 5 months that have summed up in all this extra weight! Not to say i didn't enjoy one minute of indulging myself in all the goodness but I have learned my lesson of being gluttonous (bah! who's to say i still won't end up on that level of hell?). I have repented and really trying to adhere to a strict healthy diet full of smaller portions and exercise (goddamn i miss my high school athletic body) because in the long run, i really need to control my asthma. As an aside, what would happen to me if the world ended? i'd prolly be the first to go because i can't run away from dust storms and the living dead. it's an amusing thought. 

»anyway! to my dismay losing this weight will be tough because my metabolism has been on the run for awhile and whipping it back into shape (that seems a bit violent) will take time, discipline, and constant reminders. I'm envious of my friends who don't indulge like I do LOL. but hey! it's a good experience being a bit chubby..makes me realize that i'm not meant to be a big girl.

-- anyways now i remember how much fun it was to be fit because i felt like i could do anything and my body could follow suit!

»moving on, i've had to kill the voice in me screaming for junk food and chocolate (oh especially chocolate!!!) and have thrown myself into my summer classes. It's so much easier to focus all that energy and desire in accomplishing my goals of attending class and jumpstarting that critical vein of thinking and analysis (alas i know i will never be cut out to be a busy bickson, the birthright of many californians ~ if any of you have read the tao of pooh)

right now i'm taking WMS 50 and CMN 102. my first midterm is next tuesday and the monday after. ARG. i'm going home july 8th (so if anyone wants to hang out ;) ) and my test is that monday! bah...Oh well i really need to get good grades this summer session just to feel good :)

MOVING is a joke. i've been trying to get ready but haven't accomplished much. we also don't have a place to temporarly put up yet either :(. but my parent's are lending the  expedition to me (i've asked for a month and that i'd bring it back) SOOO yay i can technically go anywhere i want now, but ha i won't cause i'm going green. i will conserve gas...FUCK the rising gas prices because its summer.

Anyways I'm not excited for the end of this year. TOO MUCH to think about...I would like to go with th eflow and not worry about it so much but i have to be concerned. my parents want me back home, to work at the hospital as a student asst., and help them out. BUT what good does that do for my future? I'm in need of an outlet to save me from that predicament. I know that i should go home and take care of my parents because i want to spend precious moments with them because they are getting older (ahh if only they could have a philosophy of mind of being eternally youthful, their lives would be prolonged by so much) HOPEFULLY everything falls into place and my parents don't think i'm leaving them too early.

i am promised to travel to colorado :) i am excited to see my best friend graduate in december!!! woot woot. and perhaps we'll be going to hawaii in january (which i would prefer because it would be cheaper!) I just need a job or stroke of luck to get me there :P

ahh! i want to continue writing but i need to study for my exams :(

love!