The weather is simply...sunny and warm. i'm a bit skeptical because summer's full heat hasn't fully reigned yet...if you've never been in davis during the summer it absolutely sucks.
» My first class of the day --> Women's Studies 50 - Introduction to Women and Gender Studies with Professor Nettles. Ideally, this is a great class because as a woman myself i'm curious about what is feminism, what is women's studies...it's a whole new world to me because i've stayed away because i've always believed it wasn't time for me to learn about it ... yet after the first class i regret not taking this introductory class as one of the first classes at the beginning of my studies at uc davis.
its too soon to tell if i'll really like it or if i'll do well (which i'm banking on doing superb no matter what) but i'm enthusiastic and excited about it. i feel like i might no contribute to discussion but since women's studies encourages intersectionality, i'm all for it.
it also made me realize how sparse an organization can be if there framework is built with a system that is blinded to its potential. whether their scared to venture beyond what is tradition or what is beyond me.. the manuals they've written are as empty as my notebooks i used last quarter...3 or 4 pages with things...the rest garbage.
here i am sitting at the arc lounge area, listening to the sound of muffled rock music and the sounds of people dragging their feet.
i always wonder what has happened to me and the little things? it's like i've lost touch with that and no longer want to spare time for the details. my pleasure in wondering about the strokes and brushes of the picture of life elude me...i still take the same pleasure with paintings but maybe it's me fearing to lose the bigger picture and getting lost in all the good stuff...
snapping back to reality... oh i am such an individual easily distracted...
BUT i need to think about my future...
As soon as possible i will be applying to CSU Sacramento for a post-bac program in health sciences. Since my Calvet fee waiver lasts til the age of 26, i might as well take advantage of the opportunity...it might set me back in terms of student loans and what not but i believe i was meant to work in the hospital setting. if i can't become a doctor i might as well be someone just as important to the health system. my objective for this summer is to research and develop a sense of achievement and goal to work towards as well as build a network that can support me and guide me. not many people know what i want to accomplish in life, and for a year or two i was going with the flow...but how can i expose myself to opportunities if i am stuck in the same flow? change is consciously made and you need to push forward.
this is my plan. a plan that i need to learn how to achieve the results i want.
another year or two of school...done! just need to do something in the mean. it's going to be weird going back to a state school (im so used to the computer labs and crap at UCD) at least i'll still be able to use my ID card :)
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The possibility of stepping into a higher plane is quite real for everyone. It requires no force or effort or sacrifice. It involves little more than changing our ideas about what is normal.”
- deepak chopra
